21 weeks

So this week, I am 21 weeks pregnant, which means I am over the halfway point. It's exciting and scary, all at the same time. I am experiencing very overwhelming emotions right now and they range from extremely happy to extremely terrified and all those in between.

But anyway, I began to look at schools to see what our options were. I'm okay with public schools but at the same time, I worry about my little boy. I attend schools quite often and let me tell you, they are scary today, especially the middle schools. On top of that, as wonderful as teachers are and I truly believe teachers are like Heaven sent angels, they aren't allowed to truly teach anymore. They have to be obsessed with those end of grade tests.  I've had teachers tell me how bad it is and I know it's probably partially like that in private schools but in public schools, it's worse. I want my boy to receive a good education so he can do whatever he wants in life. I don't want him so focused on these stupid tests, that he misses out on receiving a real education. So I thought maybe a private school would be better suited for my little boy. But that costs money and when I began to research, I discovered it costs quite a bit of money so I'm going to have to find another job to give my boy a super great education, either that or get 2 or 3 jobs.

On another note, Corbin's room is coming along nicely though slowly. We are having to do things as we save up the money so it's taking longer than we hoped but it'll get done. I can't wait for it to get finished. I want to be able to go in there and just sit and take it all in before he comes, and maybe play with his toys too!! I just think his room will be peaceful and being there will make me smile.

We go back to our regular doctor next week and then the next week, we'll go back to the specialist in Raleigh for another detailed ultrasound. By then, I'll be 23 weeks along and they feel they can get a better look at his heart. I hope everything looks as great as it did last time and I hope we get more pictures of him moving all over the place. It was such an amazing thing to actually see him inside of me. I wish I could see him everyday!!!