Well for the past week, I've had two sick boys. Devin and Corbin finally caught whatever it was that I had.
It started with just little, bitty coughs. Corbin started coughing a little but one day woke up with a really deap, croupy cough. It sounded horrible and the poor thing was pitiful. Since his cough was so bad, we called the doctor. Devin had started coughing on the day Corbin's cough got worse so we decided to tell the doctor about his cough that day too, thinking they could do something ahead of time to keep Devin from getting worse. That, of course, didn't happen. What did happen is I had to pay co-pays for both Devin AND Corbin to see the doctor and then basically wait for Devin to get really sick so I could take him back to the doctor and pay yet another co-pay. Doctor's offices are so lovely.
Anyway, Corbin's cough has lasted over a week but it's not as bad now. He went maybe 2-3 days with a really bad cough. But not, his cough is better and he has a runny nose. Devin had a bad cough for about the same and right now his cough should be almost gone. But what a rough week it was!
Sick kids is not fun!
Devin actually took his cough like a tough little man. I guess he's used to feeling like crap so a little cough didn't phase him much. But poor Corbin, he hardly ever gets sick so this cold really kicked his butt. He has been a handful!
I have felt horrible about passing on my cold to them but it was inevitable. I'm just shocked that Allen hasn't caught it. He never gets sick and although I am thankful, I'm also a little bit jealous! It's not fair!
This year has certainly been one for the books in doctors visits and sickness. I hope this round of colds is the last thing we have to deal with for the REST of the year!
Thursday, March 14, 2013
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Finally time!
Well, the time has finally come.
Allen's karate school is starting up next week.
I'm super excited for him. He's worked really hard on this and has really been patiently waiting for God to pull things together.
Most importantly, he's let God take over his business. That, to me, is what will make it a success.
But I'm still worried. There's a lot of involved in starting a business.
Allen is very confident it'll work and as his wife, I've been as supportive as I can be. And it's been hard. There's a lot of people who haven't supported Allen in this. They take he is crazy and I'm crazy for letting him do this.
But you know, Allen and I have spent the last 10 years taking chances. We are risk takers.
I can't imagine how hard it must be to not know what your calling in life is. But that's how Allen has been for that past few years. He's bounced around trying to find his calling in life.
When he gave his life to God in 2010, that's when things finally came together for him. And that's when God gave him his calling. So you know, how can you not support that?
I envision this business will thrive and that not only will Allen teach kid's karate, he'll teach kids about God. I imagine this business will make us a better Christian couple and will help us in our marriage. I imagine this business will make us better parents and overall, just better people.
I don't imagine it making us rich. It won't.
But, if it will give Allen a career and still allow him to be home during the day with our kids, I'll be happy.
Allen's karate school is starting up next week.
I'm super excited for him. He's worked really hard on this and has really been patiently waiting for God to pull things together.
Most importantly, he's let God take over his business. That, to me, is what will make it a success.
But I'm still worried. There's a lot of involved in starting a business.
Allen is very confident it'll work and as his wife, I've been as supportive as I can be. And it's been hard. There's a lot of people who haven't supported Allen in this. They take he is crazy and I'm crazy for letting him do this.
But you know, Allen and I have spent the last 10 years taking chances. We are risk takers.
I can't imagine how hard it must be to not know what your calling in life is. But that's how Allen has been for that past few years. He's bounced around trying to find his calling in life.
When he gave his life to God in 2010, that's when things finally came together for him. And that's when God gave him his calling. So you know, how can you not support that?
I envision this business will thrive and that not only will Allen teach kid's karate, he'll teach kids about God. I imagine this business will make us a better Christian couple and will help us in our marriage. I imagine this business will make us better parents and overall, just better people.
I don't imagine it making us rich. It won't.
But, if it will give Allen a career and still allow him to be home during the day with our kids, I'll be happy.
Being a mom
Being a mom is the most exhausting thing I've ever done. And I've done a lot of things.
The hardest thing about my life right now is the lack of friends I have to call when I need to just vent. Sometimes, it helps to just pick up the phone and tell someone how crazy your day was. I don't feel like I have that.
I feel like I'm surrounded by a lot of people that care about me and my family. I mean, obviously, we were so blessed to have folks praying for us and doing things for us when Devin was in the hospital, I know how lucky I am. But there still wasn't that one person I could really call and just cry to and there's been lots of times I needed that.
I have Allen and there were lots of times I've cried with him. And of course, he's let me do it. He's my best friend but you still need someone else.
I miss Jennifer.
I know she would have been there and she would have let me vent and she would have had my back during all this. She would have told the nosy people who were trying to tell me what to do when Devin was in the hospital to back off and she would have left me alone when I just needed to be alone.
One of my bad qualities is my lack of openness and trust. I don't let people in and I have a hard time making friends. I have a lot of acquaintances but not a lot of friends.
Anyway, that's not what this blog is about. It's about how exhausting motherhood is. Sometimes, you just need a night out with a friend.
I know Allen needs the same thing.
I feel really bad for Allen sometimes. He's home every, single day with the boys and Devin cries 90% of the time and it wears on your nerves. And Corbin, well he's a typically almost-two-year-old so imagine being around that all day!
Sometimes I come home at night and I think Allen is about to lose his mind!
But of course, there are other times I feel sorry for myself.
I come home late a lot. My job is not a 8-5 one. I work late often, I work weekends and I'm just not there for my kids like I'd like to be. And it sucks.
Last night, I got home at 10 p.m. I went in at 8:30 a.m. The day before that, I went in at 9 and got home at 8. One of the nights, Allen was telling me about his day and what Corbin did and how he peed in the potty and it just broke my heart that I missed something like that. Peeing in the potty is a big deal! With Allen being the daddy, he doesn't think of stuff like that as a big deal. If it were me home with Corbin, I would have threw a parade or something. I would have called Allen at work and bragged about Corbin peeing. I may have even taken a picture!
It's hard to be the one working. When I get off, I just want to go home and go to bed. But more so, I want to spend time with the boys. So, I stay up and play with them and get them to bed. On the weekends, when I'm not working, I try to spend as much time with them.
I know that eventually my work schedule will truly create some conflicts with my personal life and then, I'll have to take a look at some things. My family is #1 and being a mom is now the most important job that I have! If I have to pick between a board meeting and my kid's soccer game, well you can imagine which one it's going to be.
The hardest thing about my life right now is the lack of friends I have to call when I need to just vent. Sometimes, it helps to just pick up the phone and tell someone how crazy your day was. I don't feel like I have that.
I feel like I'm surrounded by a lot of people that care about me and my family. I mean, obviously, we were so blessed to have folks praying for us and doing things for us when Devin was in the hospital, I know how lucky I am. But there still wasn't that one person I could really call and just cry to and there's been lots of times I needed that.
I have Allen and there were lots of times I've cried with him. And of course, he's let me do it. He's my best friend but you still need someone else.
I miss Jennifer.
I know she would have been there and she would have let me vent and she would have had my back during all this. She would have told the nosy people who were trying to tell me what to do when Devin was in the hospital to back off and she would have left me alone when I just needed to be alone.
One of my bad qualities is my lack of openness and trust. I don't let people in and I have a hard time making friends. I have a lot of acquaintances but not a lot of friends.
Anyway, that's not what this blog is about. It's about how exhausting motherhood is. Sometimes, you just need a night out with a friend.
I know Allen needs the same thing.
I feel really bad for Allen sometimes. He's home every, single day with the boys and Devin cries 90% of the time and it wears on your nerves. And Corbin, well he's a typically almost-two-year-old so imagine being around that all day!
Sometimes I come home at night and I think Allen is about to lose his mind!
But of course, there are other times I feel sorry for myself.
I come home late a lot. My job is not a 8-5 one. I work late often, I work weekends and I'm just not there for my kids like I'd like to be. And it sucks.
Last night, I got home at 10 p.m. I went in at 8:30 a.m. The day before that, I went in at 9 and got home at 8. One of the nights, Allen was telling me about his day and what Corbin did and how he peed in the potty and it just broke my heart that I missed something like that. Peeing in the potty is a big deal! With Allen being the daddy, he doesn't think of stuff like that as a big deal. If it were me home with Corbin, I would have threw a parade or something. I would have called Allen at work and bragged about Corbin peeing. I may have even taken a picture!
It's hard to be the one working. When I get off, I just want to go home and go to bed. But more so, I want to spend time with the boys. So, I stay up and play with them and get them to bed. On the weekends, when I'm not working, I try to spend as much time with them.
I know that eventually my work schedule will truly create some conflicts with my personal life and then, I'll have to take a look at some things. My family is #1 and being a mom is now the most important job that I have! If I have to pick between a board meeting and my kid's soccer game, well you can imagine which one it's going to be.
Colds and yucky stuff
As if there wasn't enough going on in my life right now, I have caught some sort of blasted cold. GRRR
This little bugger is going around at work and I seem to not be able to dodge any type of virus.
Of course, I am plum out of vacation and sick days at work so I just have to suffer. I rested most of the weekend, as much as I could, but there's only so much rest you can get with two kids.
Being sick isn't even what bothers me the most. It's the thought that I could, and probably will, pass this on to at least one of my boys.
Corbin seems to have his daddy's immune system. He rarely gets sick and the few times he's been sick, it seems to come and go pretty quickly. But Devin, I have a feeling he'll catch everything.
If I had to choose, I'd pick Corbin to give this cold too. Not because I love him less but because he's older and healthier and stronger. And he can actually take medicine now. But I'd prefer if they both just didn't get it!
This little bugger is going around at work and I seem to not be able to dodge any type of virus.
Of course, I am plum out of vacation and sick days at work so I just have to suffer. I rested most of the weekend, as much as I could, but there's only so much rest you can get with two kids.
Being sick isn't even what bothers me the most. It's the thought that I could, and probably will, pass this on to at least one of my boys.
Corbin seems to have his daddy's immune system. He rarely gets sick and the few times he's been sick, it seems to come and go pretty quickly. But Devin, I have a feeling he'll catch everything.
If I had to choose, I'd pick Corbin to give this cold too. Not because I love him less but because he's older and healthier and stronger. And he can actually take medicine now. But I'd prefer if they both just didn't get it!
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