Catching up...

It's been a while since I've posted anything. I just haven't had a lot of motivation lately. It's been hell just trying to get out my stories for the newspaper. I just haven't wanted to write. This month has been hard for me for some reason. 

It doesn't really represent much so I don't know why April, as opposed to any other month, has been so hard on me. But I've really missed Jennifer this month. I wish I could say why. I think it may be that I just miss having a friend to talk to, someone I can confide in. Sometimes a person just needs to vent and get it all out to be okay. In two years, I haven't had anyone to vent to. So all my emotions are all bottled up and it sucks. But I've spent most of my life keeping most of my feelings to myself so I suppose it shouldn't be that difficult to maintain. 

I know that I'll be okay but I just feel like running away sometimes. I just need a break, a vacation. I just want to run away to some far away place where no one can reach me so I can be alone and vent to myself. I imagine it would probably do me a lot of good. But I've got responsibilities that just can't be left behind so that will remain a crazy dream of mine. 

Other that the misery of things, there has been some good things going on. Recently, my BPW club voted for me to be the Vice President, which is kinda cool. I've gotten involved in several organizations since I moved here and I've enjoyed being a part of something. Allen and I were also voted into a Ruritan Club which is cool. I'm excited about being a part of something that makes a difference. It'll give me the opportunity to get involved and meet new people and make some acquaintances, which is something I really need right now. I think Jennifer would be proud.