Blessings

I feel compelled to just write right now. I don't know why.

I had a moment of losing control of my tongue today. I said things I shouldn't have. I apologized immediately after and then I told God I was sorry. But it bothered me so I had to walk out and take a break for a minute. So I went and got a coffee.

On the way, a song called "Blessings" came on by Laura Story. It touched me and as I sat at the stop light to come back, I started crying. I guess I felt that song was speaking to me.

I'm notorious for pushing God away. So God has to continuously remind me that he's here by providing me with blessings through things that will remind me he's here. He has to give me trials and tribulations because when things are good, I don't thank Him and I don't acknowledge his existence. I would like to change that.

I'm amazed at the things I've been blessed with. I see God working through me and my family everyday and I am just amazed that God hasn't given up on me.

I know God is here. I look at my family and can see it. I am married to a man that is a perfect testimony to the power of God. I can't even begin to describe the changes God has made in Allen. And to someone that knows Allen not as well as I do, they may not can see it. But I can. And God can.

If Allen and I hadn't of been through what we have, we would not be where we are today. We wouldn't have grown as a couple and we wouldn't have realized the importance of putting God first in our relationship. And we wouldn't still be together. So this song fits us perfectly.

Now, I want this Laura Story's CD. This song is amazing. It has really made me think about some things.

BLESSINGS
Sung by Laura Story

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the achings of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise